Those things in my mind in words

Okay so this is where i will try to nightly describe how my day went. Im insanely weird so feel free to comment on it xD i just like getting everything out of my head before going to bed.

okayyy so today I only got four hours of sleep and woke up at 5am! how fun. During the day i came online and looked around the site, talked to some people and packed all my crud up from my aunts house. While i did that i found $20! it was awesome lol. after packing i helped my aunt and uncle pack up and clean and load the car. We were heading for my hometown, Kelowna. they were driving me home but they were also staying for about a month because my uncles dad is dying of cancer in his bones, lungs and muscles.. and wont last until the end of september... -crying as i type- The drive was long and terrible.. All i could think about was Roger (his dad). When we arrived to Kelowna i had to see Roger and I cried so hard.. he looked terrible and well.. I hated seeing it. He was hooked up to an IV and oxygen.. His eyes were full of pain.. and.. and he just seemed like he wanted it all over. My dad picked me up from there and i cried the whole way home before finally calming down... God im sitting here wishing someone would hold me or hug me or... something.. I cant calm down anymore. I just keep crying .. anyway...

Article 1 Over..

(yeah..-cant breathe-)

Today.. Well i got up and came on here for like a few hours.. did nothing.. lol. then finally got motivated and dressed myself and got my dad to take me to the mall to get my sousins birthday presents. after that we headed over to my uncles for a little kid birthday party. while at the party tthe kids had a scavenger hunt and when they finished the "big kids" had to get the leftovers and well the little kids thought it would be fin to steal it all and hide it again. this happened 5 times. within that time frame i got mugged for candy like 9 times! im full of scrapes and bruises Dx. it was horrid. after the party i came home and went on my laptop and ignored my fathers discusting dinner. as i sit here i think of roger and.. well his family..

-holds onto you- Thank you...

I am sorry hun. *rug your back and give you a lighter hug than the last one you got.*

wow its been ever since i posted on here! i will post my christmas eve and christmas day ones as soon as they are over haha